Thursday, May 31, 2012

Day Two Hundred & Thirteen

Went on a great hike with Jess this afternoon. The view at St. Mary's Glacier was beautiful. The best part was deciding to take a non-path path down the mountain. It was so much fun to search for handholds, to slide on our butts, to have those heart-pounding moments of wondering if you're going to be able to stop before you go over the side. It reminded me how much I love hiking and how much I love being outdoors doing something fun with someone I love.




That evening, we went downtown and had dinner with Sarah. It was so much fun. We sat there for over two hours just chatting and telling stories and overall enjoying one each others' company. It was a really fabulous day.



Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Day Two Hundred & Twelve

For how much more I enjoy working out when I'm doing it with my best friend.

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Day Two Hundred & Eleven

Last day of graduate classes ever!

Seeing Blind Pilot, The Head and The Heart, & The Shins in concert at Red Rocks! 

The Blind Pilot: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=68EIBy9Z-ew

The Head & The Heart: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TnUUgy0zPkM

The Shins: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vi7aVsmH_eo

Monday, May 28, 2012

Sunday, May 27, 2012

Day Two Hundred & Nine

Going to neighborhood festival with my favorite 5-year-old; listening to him laugh uncontrollably.

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Day Two Hundred & Six

For holding a sweet (though often screaming) 4 week old baby. For tracing those teeny feet, for smelling that baby smell, for remembering the preciousness of life.

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

Day Two Hundred & Five

After a day where I couldn't force myself to get out of bed until 5pm, by the encouraging words of S.R., I met her at a coffee shop to work on finals. I managed to create about 2 slides in 4 hours, but what really mattered is that I had gotten out of bed, was spending time with someone very dear to me, and that I was reconnecting with the Universe. Later that night S. let me cuddle in her super soft bed and I fell asleep listening to her TV and breathing. And I felt safe. And I felt loved. And I felt like maybe things could be okay.

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Day Two Hundred & Four

For a wonderful evening spent with S.B, including watching New Girl snuggled in bed with her and the simple presence of her sleeping next to me.

Monday, May 21, 2012

Day Two Hundred & Three

For Thai food & a slumber party with B.A. For knowing that even though she's going to move back to California soon, I have absolutely no doubts that we will maintain our friendship and that it'll be just as strong.


Sunday, May 20, 2012

Day Two Hundred & Two

For writing a 5 page paper in 3 hours, when I usually average 1 page per 90 minutes.

Saturday, May 19, 2012

Day Two Hundred & One

It was really great to have a low-key, fun birthday dinner with friends this year. I like big parties and my birthday last year was perhaps the best birthday celebration I've ever had, but there's also something to be said about going out to dinner with people who love you and want to acknowledge your place in their lives.

Friday, May 18, 2012

Day Two Hundred!

For starting to accept the way of being lost.  

Cutting Loose
by William Stafford


Sometimes from sorrow, for no reason,
you sing. For no reason, you accept
the way of being lost, cutting loose from
all else and electing a world
where you go where you want to.

Arbitrary, sound comes, a reminder
that a steady center is holding
all else. If you listen, that sound
will tell where it is, and you
can slide your way past trouble.

Certain twisted monsters
always bar the path - but that's when
you get going best, glad to be
lost, learning how real it is
here on the earth, again and again.



Thursday, May 17, 2012

Day One Hundred & Ninety-Nine

Happy birthday to myself.

It's been a tough birthday to try and celebrate this year, but I am very grateful I am still here to experience it and to work towards another year.

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Day One Hundred & Ninety-Eight

For Justin & Lisa and a great, low-key visit up in the Poudre Canyon. For driving alongside a forest fire (not that I'm grateful there was a fire; I wish there hadn't been, but it was really interesting to see since it was happening).


Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Day One Hundred & Ninety-Seven

I have a most amazing best friend. She's consistently made time for me in the past three weeks so that I can call and cry to her for an hour at a time. She listens to those tears and my fears and then finds the positive spin. She reminds me that life isn't perfect and that if we keep ourselves open to what may come, there's a pretty darn good chance it's going to be something amazing. She's been my one constant person for the past 13 years and I'm so incredibly blessed to have her.

Monday, May 14, 2012

Day One Hundred & Ninety-Six

For a supportive group leader. For having the conversation with my supervisors be over and out of the way. For cleaning out my desk/office. For getting positive feedback after role-playing in class. For an open and honest conversation, even if nothing has been clearly and neatly figured out. For getting to come home to my mom after an overwhelming day.

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Day One Hundred & Ninety-Five

For spending Mother's Day with my mom. For a good dinner, enjoyable movie, and pleasant walk. For re-developing our relationship and for it being on a deeper level.

Friday, May 11, 2012

Day One Hundred & Ninety-Three

Realizing that I can change some of the decisions I make and that if I don't like how something is going, I have the right and the ability to say so and do something about it.

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Day One Hundred & Ninety-Two

For the best day I've had in a few weeks. Especially for it being with my mom.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Day One Hundred & Ninety-One

For having an easy, relaxed, relationship with my brother B. For him flying out to stay with me when I needed him. For his ability to listen, to give advice without judgment, and his consistent love.

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Day One Hundred & Ninety

For: Hard, tough, honest, real, emotional, vulnerable, intense conversations that allow issues to be aired, apologizes to be made, and gratitude to be shown. For having someone in my life willing to have these conversations, in spite of how very difficult they can be.

Monday, May 7, 2012

Day One Hundred & Eighty-Nine

For A.L.

It's amazing sometimes where support comes from when it's needed most. A. is my friend, but not necessarily one I've been very close to and yet she's shown up in some form every single day to let me know she's here for me; she asks what I need and when it's something she can do, she does it. I'm feeling very, very blessed and so incredibly grateful.

Sunday, May 6, 2012

Day One Hundred & Eighty-Eight

For having a slumber party with S.R., complete with dinner, baking cookies, movie watching, and good conversation (including laughs and tears). It was one of the first times in a week I really feel like I've been able to truly breathe.

Saturday, May 5, 2012

Day One Hundred & Eighty-Seven

(Watch this first:) 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d9NF2edxy-M

For finding something to laugh about:
http://youtu.be/NQTisKNnV7U

Friday, May 4, 2012

Day One Hundred & Eighty-Six

For...

Going to a Rockies game on an insanely beautiful night. The feeling of being part of a group of people, doing the same thing, focused on the same thing, just that feeling of being separate, but also part of something.

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Day One Hundred & Eighty-Five

"Fairy tales are full of stories about the burden of gratitude borne toward one who has saved your life. The stories detail the lengths the saved will go to acknowledge that debt, for the saved know the fragility of what was nearly lost. The saved know the critical moment in which life becomes death, know that grace and courage must intercede forcefully because the water rushing over the cliff has tremendous momentum. The save know the value of the one who sees past good cheer, stops by once a day, offers a loan, blocks the blow. The saved know and can't express their gratitude adequately.

We are always saving one another. Sometimes we are aware of it; we notice the cost to our reserves even as we pay it. Other times we are unaware that we have grown wings, swooped someone from danger without ever glancing behind or feeling the weight of our temporary feathers. But the saved know, and so the stories accumulate...

Some acts can never be acknowledged adequately; they are gifts. It is these that stretch the hearts of the giver and the receiver, that call out for metaphor, for the stories and fables we read to our children as instruction. You will be called upon to give beyond your means, to sacrifice for others who may never know it was your lifeblood that revived their own. In this way, we humans become great. In this way, we understand love."

Patricia Weaver Francisco, Telling